I SEE THE RAINBOW I remember what a friend said about me: “She acts like summer and walks like rain.” Actually I never thought that people can see the emptiness and the raindrops inside of me. Maybe a girl really can’t hide everything with a little smile. But, however, it’s not important if they see those things because they also don’t care about them. I think I expect too much of life. I never found the happiness, but it was so close. As I wanted to grab it, a big cloud came over me. It started to rain. But I like the rain. Maybe it’s just the fact that I got used to it. In the rain I find peace and relaxation, with the raindrops I share all those suffocating feelings, all of my stories, my whole broken mind. And always when it rains, I think about how weird it is to be a human because as humans we ruin everything we touch, including each other. And the sun? Why did it shine so rare in my life? Maybe it was the whole time in the sky, but I ran away from it, I ran into the rain. When I looked into the sun, there were so many moments full of happiness. Summer nights with my friends, the sound of a wild ocean, jumping on a concert of my favourite band … such beautiful things. But I think it was never enough for me. There was always a raindrop in my heart that told me I was still alone, that I always had been. All those feelings fight in the inside of me. I’m just a girl, a week and pathetic teenager who doesn’t know how to make things better. Sadness and happiness are two normal things in life, just like the sun and rain. But some people don’t know to handle with it, just like me. So I just have to learn how to combine it. The most time I walked in the rain. Sometimes there shined the sun. And now, now I’m trying to find the rainbow.